I miss halloumi
Just a quick pop in. I miss halloumi.
I was watching a video with halloumi in it and I just miss it. The last time I ate it was at school, which caused me to reflect on how much we take for granted seeing our friends every day, eating food to socialise and refuel our bodies after a long, tiring dance day. Taking for granted the hours we are lucky enough to get in the studio each week.
I have noticed things change since those times. Having to think about what training I should be doing each day; having the time to procrastinate and overthink is draining. The hours and days merging into one.
Trips to Aldi during the evening with my very best friends to get a sense of normal life away from the crazy ballet world I took for granted- walking through the middle aisle just so we could put off going back to house to revise. It all seems so far away.
Those days seem so simple now. I didn't have to think about anything other than all the 'first world problems' that seem so irrelevant now.
I didn't take the halloumi for granted though as it is something I only get at school or when I'm out- we never seem to have it at home?!
I was told the other day by someone that they didn't want to see my Snapchat stories of old photos with friends because I was missing them due to the persons 'perspective'. I guess they knew that I missed it all and yet when I was there, we all had something to complain about. I guess that makes me fake? As humans, we spend an average of 53 hours a year complaining. As a result of this, it is believed that I shouldn't be missing my busy life of 'stress' and work, regardless of human nature.
However, we could look at it with the perspective of reflection instead? Taking time to understand that we took it for granted. Therefore, when we go back we can take the time to make the absolute most of what we have.
I feel so grateful, though ironically now, that my 2020 goal was to live every day like it was the last; to stop worrying because if I didn't enjoy my life, I'll regret it later. Despite of injury, I did this last term and was able to accept change in my life with such a positive outlook.
To put this all into PERSPECTIVE, live every day like it is your last now. Stop complaining about being bored in the house *cue the TikTok song* and do something you enjoy. Don't look back at this time and regret all this time as a missed opportunity too. Reflect, learn and move on. Don't reflect, regret and live in the past. Live in the now. Take your time to adjust. It takes 3 weeks to make new habits, it hasn't even been 3 weeks in lockdown yet. Give yourself a break.
Enjoy these moments at home and don't stress the little things. You can't solve or change everything.
Maddie x
I was watching a video with halloumi in it and I just miss it. The last time I ate it was at school, which caused me to reflect on how much we take for granted seeing our friends every day, eating food to socialise and refuel our bodies after a long, tiring dance day. Taking for granted the hours we are lucky enough to get in the studio each week.
I have noticed things change since those times. Having to think about what training I should be doing each day; having the time to procrastinate and overthink is draining. The hours and days merging into one.
Trips to Aldi during the evening with my very best friends to get a sense of normal life away from the crazy ballet world I took for granted- walking through the middle aisle just so we could put off going back to house to revise. It all seems so far away.
Those days seem so simple now. I didn't have to think about anything other than all the 'first world problems' that seem so irrelevant now.
I didn't take the halloumi for granted though as it is something I only get at school or when I'm out- we never seem to have it at home?!
I was told the other day by someone that they didn't want to see my Snapchat stories of old photos with friends because I was missing them due to the persons 'perspective'. I guess they knew that I missed it all and yet when I was there, we all had something to complain about. I guess that makes me fake? As humans, we spend an average of 53 hours a year complaining. As a result of this, it is believed that I shouldn't be missing my busy life of 'stress' and work, regardless of human nature.
However, we could look at it with the perspective of reflection instead? Taking time to understand that we took it for granted. Therefore, when we go back we can take the time to make the absolute most of what we have.
I feel so grateful, though ironically now, that my 2020 goal was to live every day like it was the last; to stop worrying because if I didn't enjoy my life, I'll regret it later. Despite of injury, I did this last term and was able to accept change in my life with such a positive outlook.
To put this all into PERSPECTIVE, live every day like it is your last now. Stop complaining about being bored in the house *cue the TikTok song* and do something you enjoy. Don't look back at this time and regret all this time as a missed opportunity too. Reflect, learn and move on. Don't reflect, regret and live in the past. Live in the now. Take your time to adjust. It takes 3 weeks to make new habits, it hasn't even been 3 weeks in lockdown yet. Give yourself a break.
Enjoy these moments at home and don't stress the little things. You can't solve or change everything.
Maddie x
I love the way you write. To have this perspective on life at such a youthful age is enviable. You go & live your life to the life. Live it in the moment. I also promise to buy halloumi at home 😊
ReplyDeleteI think it was worth writing just for the halloumi now!! Except we won't go to Tesco to buy it...
DeleteWow Maddie, we can all learn something from that, what a wonderful young lady you are,so thoughtful and mature. We should all make the most of this time and look at how we can be better people after this is all over, not constantly looking at what everyone else has and does but think what you can do to help others who haven't got so much. I feel so fortunate to be surrounded by such a loving family, something a lot of people don't have, even if that makes it so much harder to have this isolation with no hugs and kisses, I miss that more than anything at the moment, but we will get through this eventually and then we will appreciate what we've got so much more than we did in the past. Maddie,Grandad and I are so proud of you and can't wait to have that great big hug together, we love you soooooo much. Thank you for such an inspiring blog. Lots of love and virtual hugs to you all.����������
ReplyDeleteExactly!! Using this time to step back and appreciate what we have nd are missing is so important now! Miss you loads and can't wait to give you a big hug again soon! Except, NO GOING TO THE SHOP FOR GIN, even if you are social distancing hahaha!!!
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